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Jan Bister
Darth 8mm
Posts: 2629
From: Ohio, USA
Registered: Jan 2005
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posted June 21, 2011 02:47 PM
Just thought I'd peek in and find out what everyone's up to...I know a few ppl have emailed me over the years asking about me...well, I'm still alive though that doesn't seem to mean much since I've basically been exiled from the USA...the one place I've truly felt at home and thought I would stay for a lifetime...but no, fate decided that I should not be able to maintain my green card and lose my status as a permanent resident - just when I was getting ready to become naturalized too. :~(
I'm stuck in Argentina now, Buenos Aires, no idea what'll happen the next few years. I've been crying myself to sleep lately just wanting to go back home, back to Ohio or some other state, I don't know how to deal with this extreme homesickness and bitterness over all I've lost.
btw, there's no super-8 scene in Argentina to speak of, not that I'm aware anyway. Since 95% of my belongings are now in my native Germany at my parents' retirement house, I'm half thinking about simply selling off all my film stuff and not bothering to have it shipped to Argentina (and I've heard horror stories about customs stealing stuff or confiscating it until you bribe them to release it). Who knows.
I'm not the same Jan who enjoyed posting here regularly a few years ago and proudly shared details of his "Elmo ST-1600HD" monster projector...I feel broken and hopeless.
Well, that was more than I wanted to say for this time...
Wondering about everyone I've known here, Kevin F, Chip G, lots of others (I've honestly forgotten a lot of names)...
I miss eBay and Kraft mac'n'cheese. Sigh.
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Call me Phoenix. *dusts off the ashes*
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Jan Bister
Darth 8mm
Posts: 2629
From: Ohio, USA
Registered: Jan 2005
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posted July 07, 2011 02:43 PM
thanks so much everyone...I don't have a realistic chance of ever making it back to the USA, I'm kinda scared of the idea of living in Argentina, and yes I hate Germany with every fiber of my being...even though I'm born and raised here, this country is completely foreign to me. Lately I've toyed with the idea of moving to the UK...it would be ideal in so many ways, no language barrier, no restrictions on immigration, different lifestyle, still in Europe and not so far away, only thing is I haven't had a job in 4 years and have no qualifications...not much hope of ever supporting myself financially.
If just once, life could just throw me a bone in the form of a lottery win or something...
edit: forgot to mention I left Buenos Aires and went back to my parents' place (Bremen, Germany) a few days ago...my GF is miserable of course and I didn't want to break her heart by leaving either but I just couldn't take it anymore...had severe panic attacks for almost 2 weeks now and only been able to sleep with strong medication some nights.
hmm, what are the nicest and most fun places in England these days? Not exactly keen on going for central London, but don't want to be too far out in quiet rural areas either...don't know much about other major cities though...just that I want to be south where the weather is the most agreeable throughout the year...
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Call me Phoenix. *dusts off the ashes*
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